Post Meridiem (a memoir)

Post Meridiem (a memoir)


Post Meridiem is an unreliable memoir of events that occurred in Los Angeles County between June and September 2009. From the bewildering cast of a state-run psychiatric hospital to the horrific exhibits of the Museum of the Morbid, Dan Lauer searches for comfort and solace from a severe depression-driven psychotic break from reality in all the wrong places.

Despite the harsh realities of most of the situations and the explicit descriptions of suicidal ideation, major depression, psychotic hallucinations, delusional thinking, and general despair, remember: there’s no reason this can’t be funny.

Cover illustration by Caitlin Hope Crawford.

Buy the Book

Post Meridiem is available for purchase as a beautiful ebook from Amazon for $4.99 in all territories. It is also a KINDLE UNLIMITED BOOK

The ebook version of Post Meridiem includes additional illustrations, content, and even an additional Fifth Part not included in the free audiobook version.
“And now: I need to end it already. This is becoming not worth it anymore. No one would really care anyway. Right? It’s not about them. Fuck them! What have they ever done for me? I was so alone here. I’m so tired. No human should have to suffer through this. Not ever. I couldn’t decide if I’m very complicated or very simple. Very smart or very stupid. Very shallow or very deep. I didn’t think I was any of those things and I felt like all of them at once. I couldn’t stand my own mind. I was at war with myself. I was not imagining things. The world had gone insane. I was perfectly fine.” from POST MERIDIEM


Psychosis and delusions are usually represented in books and movies as an outside factor, and usually the driving force of horrific behavior the rest of us “sane” people couldn’t imagine, let alone perpetrate. Or at best it is described by writers in the grip of some narcotic or in the throes of alcoholism. Hunter Thompson’s proud highway, Burroughs Tangier, you get the idea.
Dan Lauer's explosive debut comes on with numb malaise, like a bad taste in your mouth when you realize the entire night is about to go right down the gutter. First, the crazy is out there - around the narrator, in the batshit streets of L.A. But it's not long until the storyteller starts to realize that maybe the crazy is creeping up from inside.


I want as many people to experience Post Meridiem as possible, hence the free audiobook. However, contributions are more than welcome and will go towards paying for hosting and bandwidth, recouping fees, and financing some of the projects I am currently working on.

(Free) Audiobook Episodes


Select the links below to listen to each audiobook episode completely free directly in Spotify. You can also listen to each episode in your favorite podcast client as they are released. Here are direct links to a few

Listen on Spotify


Part 1: Psychosis

Part 2: Depression

Part 3: Anxiety

Part 4: Absurdity

About the Author


Dan Lauer’s work has appeared in “The Ampersand Review,” “Ghost Parachute: A Literary Magazine,” on “The Drunken Odyssey with John King” podcast, and at the “There Will Be Words” live reading events in Orlando, FL. He writes, produces, and hosts various podcasts, which can be found and heard via

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